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...and round 5 draws to a close

The fight for baby making, round 5, has drawn to a close, with a negative result as the outcome.

My doctor just spent half an hour on the phone to me after I got the news of the blood test today. He's very sweet, but I think it was to make sure I've had the news properly sink in. He used the phrase "I don't think there's anything more I can offer" (without going down the route of donors). I'm grateful that he's saying this honestly now rather than have us waste years trying, like I know can happen.

So this occasion marks a spot I think. I don't think there is going to be any more plodding along the IVF path for me, unless there is something radically different to try. We will have to work out what direction the journey will fork off from here.




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  1. oh no, I'm really sorry. I hope you are doing ok. Thinking of you.

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